Cannot Create Perfect

Yesterday, my husband came back from being in Georgia (the country, not the state) for almost a week. While he was away, we talked a little bit – and he told me that this year was going to be busy. I knew that busy meant lonely nights, weekends away from each other, and dinners for one.

So when Chris got home on a Saturday and there were multiple festivals going on – I thought “This will be perfect!” I have a dirndl that I’ve wanted to wear ever since I bought it and people keep talking about how cool the different German festivals are.

The day was anything but… Chris didn’t get home until close to noon – even though he landed at 8 am. The weather was cold and rainy – the dirndl will have to wait for another day. And I clearly hadn’t done enough research about the festival I wanted to go to.

By the time we left the house – we decided to start a little closer to home than originally planned and then head to a bigger festival for dinner. Our first stop was going to be a flea market. We walked around in the cold rain looking for all the different vendors – but all we found was an autoshow.

I lost it – the trip there I was being a brat and I apologized for it. And then walking around not finding what we were looking for but getting more wet, I broke down in tears. My husband tried consoling me – saying that it didn’t matter what we did as long as we were together.

And he was right – but in my head I had this plan for a perfect day together. We don’t get many Saturday’s together and I didn’t want to waste it. Somewhere amongst the tears I realized that I cannot force perfect and that if we continued onto the next stop I would still be miserable.

We decided to go home and watch Star Wars. A little bit of an apology for my behavior. But also one of Chris’ passions that I am getting into.

My lesson for the day – you cannot create perfect. And perfect isn’t always what you thought it was. I’m sure I’m not the only one that tries to create perfect – especially in the military community. We only get so many days with our loved ones – so we try to pack a lot into those days. And we forget that sometimes all our loved ones want is to spend the day at home.